money is horrible. (11.9.10)

seriously. i have no money to pay my phone bill til tomorrow b/c i’ve been dealing with this annoying company for like seven months using a phone i hate. well, needless to say, with my clumsiness, i dropped one of the phones that we ended up replacing and the screen shattered. so now we owe $100 for the deductible for that on top of the phone bill. so my phone is turned off til tomorrow! what is that?! i’m sorry but that just makes me feel….idk….not good. i don’t want to be that person, but what am i supposed to do when i can’t work v.much?! so my guy has to pay the money and then on friday, when i get some sort of paycheck, then i’ll pay him back.
but the problem is that today i was actually super motivated. i was going to make a ton of phone calls and now all i can do is email. bleh.

 

 

but i’m getting further along with my book and i’m super excited about it. i wrote a bit about it on my writing blog.

 

i also had something totally crazy happen last night and my guy CANNOT believe how i reacted to it. or rather, my lack of reaction to it. my fog has been beyond horrible and i’m just in a stupor.
i’m overfed and hormonal and just totally out of it.
i mean, who forgets two things for their child in less than one hour? (did i write about that the other day?) and then what i did, which i can’t write just, well, just because….it was so stupid and ditzy and i still don’t even really care. and it’s kind of a big deal. like really. but whatever. i have other things to worry about, you know. i’m in bed right now, about to leave to take the kid to school.

 

yeah, so i’m back. actually cleaned up the garage a little bit and ate something. something real. and i got out the chicken Now so that it’s thawed by the time i get ready to make the chop suey or whateveritis i’m making. i already forgot and i just looked at it lol

 

now i’m chatting with a friend about the craziness that is our lives (she’s going through disability stuff, as well, but for different reasons — yet another invisible illness, though, which is just no fun) and i’m trying to finish this blog, and i’m re-working the query my author friend was awesome enough to rip apart, as well as re-working a certain part of my concept because it just needs to be done (again…info on my writing blog). man, how freaking bad is it that i don’t even remember if i’ve mentioned it here or not?
i’ve had fog a lot, but it’s just RIDICULOUS lately. seriously..
part of me feels like there’s not much point in writing b/c i don’t even know what i’m saying 😛

 

ok, so i DIDN’T write on here what i’m doing with the book.
i had a conversation with the man last night and he just didn’t understand the fogginess/fuzziness and my general

 

um…idk what i was saying. b/c i was writing this yesterday and just stopped haha

 

i’m thinking it was that he doesn’t understand my general zombie-like attitude. cause that’s pretty much how i am. granted, i’m up on anti-depressants b/c of my HRT, but if i didn’t have that higher dose, wow… i’m still sort of on edge.

 

anyway, i’m ending this now because i have a PLAN for this blog!! a good one. you shall see :))
all my zero readers haha….

 

soon!!! =D

 

btw…it was sweet and sour chicken i made haha. and it was good!

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About Amy Cate

I have lupus. I'm doing my damndest to advocate and spread awareness. This is just one of the ways I'm involved =D
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